papa's been asking. i've been considering. set aside for awhile. but, perhaps time is up.
the world is sad enough. once i want to know more about this world, because i always felt ever so naive and ignorant abt the big outside world. but when the papers are filled with negative energy all the time, i dont see the point anymore.
perhaps we can never totally take away those things, because of the nature of yin and yang, of equilibrium, of physics. but dont you think that the world is beginning to lose its balance? well, erm, this is not quite right. the world is never stable anyway, pluses and minuses all the time, it always struggles to maintain balance, but i felt it struggles a lot more than long long time ago, much much more than that faraway timeline......
i saw a tv prog on the plane, it was a food+interview show by 肥媽。She interviewed 許冠文 in that episode. She asked him, why did you continue to be this 冷面笑匠 until today? He answered, because the world is already so sad, everyone knows it from the media, so there is no point to tell the public again how sad this world is. Since life is so short, why not create more happiness to this world?
It was such a simple theory, yet so wise.
All wisdom in this world are actually such uncomplicated and unsophisticated, yet we human beings just could not stop confusing ourselves in all possible ways.
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All those principles that I cherish sometimes fade away, but I want to regain and retain them now. It's been weeks now that i mature one more year, One more year into adulthood. it's no good when life is without principles and goals, at least i felt it's not good for myself as a person. Reasons for the fadeaways are clear - those counter-principles were beginning to eat me from inside. Yet, this is unavoidable, just like how the world struggles to stabilises itself. I just need to sharpen up that balancing skill.
Anyway, things are still (yes for the longest time of my life time in fact) going through contemplation. it's like the turn of my life. i dont know when i will find that pathway that is right. well, nothing is right or wrong really. but the right path for me will have to be the path that has a long prospect, and something that i could dedicate my greatest love and my live, just to make other lives more bright and positive.
Thanks to that tv programme, I think, things are clearer now. Phew, here goes the 1st of grey clouds. i could see clearer now, but not clearly enough yet.
