无限的F.I.R.

傳說，Neverland 是把愛放開的應許之地，是存有著無限愛的力量的地方。在這裡， 刺鳥願意開嗓高歌；在這裡，千年之戀找不到死心的理由。Love*3的短暫愛情，因為來到了neverland 而愈加發光發熱。如此这般的愛情盛宴，令我I can't go on 的絕望感，頓時化為neverland 之上的雲彩。。。

oh well.. haven't update this for a week already...

last friday, i celeb my bday with family... belated celebration... it's cool...haha... cos.. ok.. at 1st, we r suppose to go to a 70th floor restaurant, Jaan.. but then it requires a dress code.. and my dad's toes was injured.. so he couldn't wear proper shoes.. and he wasn't allowed in! my dad was pissed... he is claiming dat.. y can't i go in? does it mean dat there are no exceptions at all? wat abt the disabled ppl? so there are not allowed? and then after several minutes of argument... we decided to leave the place.. and went to Raffles Hotel instead.. haihz.. no nice view, though food stil good... my parents were still discuss abt the matter.. haha.. they even say its racism... cos sum caucasian guy is able to wear sports attire to the bar.. i mean sports shoes. but dat is the bar rite? aiya.. wateva la... i stil like the dinner~ got a surprise cake and also a prezzie for papa -- watch... and mum already gave me my prezzie on thurs.. mp3 player.. yeah... so happy... i feel so 幸福。。

today... went with 89s to the travel agency.. maybe wasted sum time.. but we finished arranging stuff already~ the dates and destinations... yeah~~~ so looking fwd to this trip...

my god.. my mum watching terminator 2.. so noisy..

bcos my dad is here.. din do much in the weekends... my plans are seriously not working...

i guess i am seriously a very very last minute person.. ok.. i dun really wann work last minute.. but duno y.. i have lost my motivation... i mean.. i am not as motivated and eager as i was during my mocks preparation... and i am really those kind dat require sum time pressure to push me to work faster than my usual 'lento' speed...

okie.. today i oni prepared for eng presentation.. and uploaded songs to mp3 and checked on trasportation on taiwan.. nv did any prep. for tmr's paper 2 math p.p. yet... hmmm.....will wake up tmr to do it.. and hope i do wake up... though chances r....

ok.. i need to be more positive... i shall sleep now and wake up early... real early... goodnite~ jia you! one week of school left, then one study leave week, then exam.. so basically two weeks left... am i ready.. nope.. er.. aiya... negative thinking again... okok... i will try my best to improve! yes.. improve in two weeks.. in fact, two weeks is not going to be a matter of long term memory anymore.. short term memory! and practise and practise and practise...

too talkative... and toking nonsense... betta go... cure my headache and panda eyes and heaty liver... havent let it rest properly since dunno when... 真对不起我的肝脏... not funny.. 睡啦，长气婆！！！

nites~

OMG~!!! 我实在太放肆、太任性、太坏了！！！ 都是妹妹惹的祸~! hahaa... 还怪罪于别人，真是的。但是，今天是我的生日嘛，正确一些，应该说是，昨天是我的生日，所以适当的放纵是可以被原谅的。无论如何，十八岁喔，18!!! haha...

我生日前夕，89 为我庆祝了一番~真是好开心啊！没想到，她们还请我吃“聚聚”呢~好好吃！生日蛋糕是粉红色的~好可爱！892的礼物也是粉红色的~好精致！还有891 的项链和戒指，别致极了~！

生日当天，好些好朋友都sms来祝贺我~好感动！妹妹也寄了张e-card给我，然后过后陪我一同放纵~ 吃了晚餐，在鼓起勇气之下，决定闯荡kbox! 哇！！ 唱得尽兴，也唱哑了嗓子，却换来了无穷的狂欢与美好的记忆！两名原本“乖巧”的女生（*cough*)，竟然在母亲去了上海之际，偷偷去唱K, 而且是去到半夜！ 好夸张！可想而知，现在我除了开心，内心深处依旧带有愧疚。惭愧自己并没有好好用这个美好的星期日，将书读好，反倒玩得流连忘返。纵使是读了Biology, 可是，并还没有读完~ 唉。。

没关系啦！18岁的生日，一生一次，父母不在，只好与妹狂欢。从此刻起，我答应我自己，一定要积极的求上进，为5月的考试奋斗~努力~ 接下来的日子，就是最后的冲刺了！ 希望自己能够照着计划行事，那么，36分的目标应该不难达到~! 时间真的剩下不多了，要考到优异的成绩，就要靠接下来的数星期的最后努力。

今天，4月11日，将是全新的开始。我要以更成熟的自己，面临5月的最后的战役，面临未来更多的挑战，迎接更多姿多彩的人生。今天，离5月3日还有整整22天的时间。这22天的时间里，我要杜绝所有诱惑，我要加油，我要百尺竿头，更进一步。我要力争上游，我要后来居上。

希望，我不要再辜负自己，也同时不要再鼓父母的期望。短短22天的牺牲，影响着3~4年的大学生活。短短的22天的牺牲，何足挂齿呢？

每一天，我要勇敢的、坚定地提醒和自己。这是你人生重要的关头，是决定你未来的方向，是决定你日后的成就的关卡。因此，容不得一刻的放松。持续的耐力，不间断的自我勉励，不断的self-motivate，是成功的要素，是胜利的帮手!

好了，废话不多说，记住，不要因一时的贪玩，让所有努力，前功尽弃。就像减肥，要持之以恒，才会可观的效果~就当作，接下来的22天，是一种闭关式的修行。FIR再流行，Penny再动听，也请你不要急着学唱。要学会appreciate耳根清静的自然，要学会专心的意义。

就此搁笔，再次祝自己生日快乐，纵使父母还会为我庆祝多一次。

我真的应该要惜福，因为我真的比太多人来的幸运了。感谢菩萨的保佑，感谢上天的厚爱。感谢所有祝福我的人，喜欢我的人，讨厌我的人。感谢一切众生。

waaa.. today ate so much.... at tea i ate loads.. egg tart, char shie pau, drank 红豆水，ate sis's cookies and pastry... aaaaa.... so full now.. and dinner is like 45 mins aways.... haihzz... tmr better go gym.. haha..

just now i watch a movie.. *ops* i am not suppose to watch movies~~ but the movie is quite unique... quite special... i started half way.. but the story line is dat one lady has a family with husband and 2 kids.. but they din seem very happy together... quarrel a lot... and then, this lady has this sensation of looking out to the window to her neighbour... she peeps into ppl's life... the other side of the building lived a man...

then there's this old man dat just came by out of nowhere.. his memory is lost... so he cant remember where he lives and stuff... but he remembered his name is XXX ( i 4got his name) haha...

下删一千字。。。。 *太懒惰写了*。。。

ok.. my point is ... 如果我们真的是要为自己而活，让自己活得快乐，是否就应该丢下因为曾经错误的决定所需要负责任的事，而去追求自己理想的生活呢？还是，我们应该为我们一切的错误选择而负责任，即使这样会使我们与理想中的幸福渐行渐远。。。若是我们的决定是前者，我们有是否做错了呢？

ok... philosophy is not part of my IB exam.. shud have joined UWC one yr later.... then i would have taken both psychology and philosophy..

anyways... concentrate!!! time to get back to my work... ohno... 6.30 pm?! time to bath and dinner.. and then do math and chem~~ din study bio as i have planned.. nvm... free 1,2 tmr~ gambade~~ oni one month left!! and u r free~~~~

~~get motivated, be motivated!~~