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if my life is without music, without movies, without books, without internet, without cameras, without sunshine, without good food, and all else that are necessary to live, who would i be?

有福報的人，因而更要懂得惜福。滿足我身為人類的慾望的同時，我亦要去慢慢咀嚼消化，那些我認為能夠回饋社會的途徑。我將逐個探索，用我有限的時間，去愛惜這個地球，有生命的，沒有生命的。如果我的人生是如此的無從限制，我想我真的有義務去做這一些。我的人生功課，由我自己決定。

Goal: 350 or less.

according to statistics, people in Taipei are using too much water.

I am now watching a television programme about how to save water to assist the act to save us from the consequences of climate changes. All those scary pictures of the sea-level rising and rivers drying, even the great Amazon has become this pathetic little river at your backyard!

How about Maldives? A century or less to go, and adios to this island.

Koalas in Queensland are dying to drink water. Wait a minute, koalas need to drink? Hello? Yes, they do now. Thanks to bush fires, courtesy of climate change, Eucalyptus are losing their water content, dehydrated. They had to fight with dogs (to drink) to save themselves from dehydration and from death, eventually.

Typhoons are still on their way here, and it's staying longer and routes are crazier this year round.

Very soon, something will happen at your door step. Everyone has to take action, spread the word, whatever it is that you should do, just do it.

If you have not heard about 350, you really should check it out.

and December 7th? Someone's birthday? nope. probably more important than ever. It's about our future.

as for myself, it's time I slowly get myself into a position that I can enthusiastically unravel a future that will be better for us all. Even if this means interneting all day. Sometimes, I really thank the invention of this. Otherwise, how can we spread these messages so quickly.

We are not doomed yet, not if we make the right choices from this second onwards. :DD

A Doorbell

after that, I wonder what do I still care about.

Nevermind discussions of justice, of freedom, of humanity, of anything. When a genuine person, a person that has nothing against this world, has all else against him/her, do we still need to speak about principles and philosophies?

When one is fated to trip and fall, again and again, could one still not ask why to god? 'why me?' but would asking bring one the answer, or would it be better off if one just accept it as god's decision to free you and to love you more?

after that, I wonder what do I still care about.

It must be a great sign. A sign that could bring me to tears and make me cry for days and nights, mourning over those lost that all seem too surreal, too dramatised, too real to be so near and true.

It must have been all so stupid to cry all over a pillow for thoughts that are made-up and unnecessarily true. I would rather cry for a spirit of love that never asks for return, that continuously gives, that shines like the morning sun.

If love could heal you, please, continue to seek love wherever you can, and I shall pray for you.

so after that, I thank you, just the way you thank all the series of unfortunate events. Anything that happen to us, is just an event that has occur on us. The value of it being good or bad, is compared to a 'beneficial ratio' that is measured using 'us' as a mean ratio. The result, both good and bad, is magnified. We go all depressed and end our own lives, or we go all hype and happy and gay. Extremes it might seem, but life is about how we deal with dramas.

and after that, I learn to love even more.

Safe it is up here, there's no need to worry, there is no need to keep all the love to oneself. When there is no love, give love. It is so powerful that by healing others, it is perhaps how you can heal yourself too. Taking too much and you forget to let go, but by giving, there is no limits. I wish to live up to it, to love with a pure heart.

after that, I seriously have so much to think about. but I thank you.

no more what ifs.

what if Maldives becomes the next wonder of the world - a country under the sea?

what if one day another crazy typhoon comes hysterically out of no where, spilling out non-stop rainfalls and destroying homes with fierce waves?

who knows when will those tragedies on tv come to meet us?

what if we ran out of clean water someday? or just think about the fact the 'a child died every 8 seconds due to water contamination'?

hows that?

***

well maybe, it's not too bad if everyone continues to cut out carbon emission like how we did in year 2009 so far. thanks to GLOBAL RECESSION and CHINA, heavy industries have to close down and China did their part to cut down industries that produces the most polluted greenhouse gas.

but that is not enough.

we must all continues to do more for ourselves and for others.

I think the recent Poetic Social Mission is amazing. I just found out about them, so yet to check them out. Maybe you guys can check it out first. One drop foundation has their own website of course, but it seems like they are not publicising this event too much in the mainstream media, or maybe not so much in Asian part of the world. Anyway i think I learnt a bit more about how our world is in deep deep crisis after watching some news special by Sisy Chen 陳文茜.

While we are still sitting comfortably in our coaches, it's time to act right and right now.

tatami bed

i woke up from my afternoon nap, which never happens to me when i am in my busy uni days. maybe its the malaysian weather. you just need it to rejuvenate, especially when you do not on the aircond. i should try to do so starting from today since i dont really need it.

waking up from this nap, a thought came across my mind. if we were to build a new house, i would prefer somekind of tatami bed. surely, it's going to be some kind of eco-house, solar-powered, since malaysia totally blessed with sunshine all year round! we have good natural resources but we never learn to use them, what a shame.

so yes, it must the sweaty nap i had. and i m now dreaming about sleeping on tatami-ed floorings, some sort of bed that is so coolin that hopefully i wont need an aircond. anymore when i sleep.

cross fingers for that.

Blog Action Day

Climate Change.

to rethink what we do (as in every single step we take, in the house/outside the house, everywhere).

rethink, with clear conscience, and a critical mind.

perhaps till today, no one could say for sure what actions will definitely stop how our Earth from continuing to act dramatically, but with baby little steps, one at a time, we can do a lot to save everything we care for.

***

recently

she eats raw

been doing that for days now

she felt fine

didnt needed cooked meat and warm chinese food to satisfy her naughty tastebuds

didnt need cakes that are baked at 175 celcius

didnt needed roasted coffees

big change

and she will continue to do so

she bought those cute little onya bags

the shopkeeper told her it could hold some 2 bottles of 2-pint-milk

but not that she drinks milk

she loves how she could put her groceries in it and carry them ever so easily

she wishes she could get some in Malaysia and give them to her friends

she bought an eco charger for her dad

hoping it would come in handy

but wonders about its usability

she reads the Ecologists

too bad it's gone fully online now

but it's better for the earth anyhow

her bookmark bars are filled with eco sites

like her favourite inhabitat

and she is in love with organic tees too

she is now a fan of eco fashion

she doesnt yet drive

but she probably will have to in the future

but she hopes to drive some hybrid/eco car instead of her dad's old car

she's still jobless though

looking for a job somewhere

where she can offer her enthusiasm for everything eco/organic

for the better of the earth and its inhabitants

we are all one in this

and we shall always be

受夠了

我乃胸無大志之徒也～～～

有時候真的想不通為甚麼自己可以如此放蕩

還是那個英國的我比較長進

是的 我已決定返回英國 同那些可惡的recession/redundancies拼到底！！

無業遊民的日子 恐怕還要過一陣子

台灣之行﹦一個月

then 回馬學車？（也許）

and then 英國我回來了！！！

此地真的不夷久留啊～

好不容易寫出白話文的post

也許我的腦袋真的開始癡呆了

ohno

read with caution (mind the (sometimes invisible) brackets please).

i always come back from a dinner with her, feeling fresh and inspired. I know I am at a crossroad here, and i do think that i am beginning to make sense of that fog in front me, slowly but progressively. I think I can't wait till I hear her mother speaking @ Crown Hall this coming Sunday. It's going to be such a blessing for the people who come, to receive her mother's teachings. I swear I'd never stop learning about these things. Things that will eventually, be the grip that hold the human race and Mother Earth together, as one. (side-tracking case 1: the other thing that she probably would not mention, is the idea of physical touch *quotes pilates teacher @ Laban*).

My beliefs have always been with me. In an ideal world, they contribute by consciously making their appearance when choices are needed to be made. Yet sometimes, it is more often the case that a(n) (un)knowned force would drag me down that evil track, drugging down my beliefs, making them weak, and in the worst case scenario, would lead to an ultimate addiction and dependency towards IT. It, the very it we are speaking of here, is no other than the power of BIG, the power of POWER (shit i side-tracked again~!)

Ok, I must say that in the real world, in Darwin's world, 'power' has never failed to make itself important. With hierarchy, there comes power. okok, I have no silly intention to draw anyone into a series of discussion regarding 'power', and no i know nothing about it. Perhaps I just feel, and i like feeling about things more than about anything.

Maybe

that is why, I write badly.

My comments are mainly: wordy, wordy, wordy.

It is both good and bad to leave the academic world (forever or for a while, who knows).

Structuring an essay takes time, but it's better for communication purposes.

and

it's good in preventing side-tracking too. (KEHEM)

ANYWAY where were we.................

right. my beliefs and the power of media giants.

ok bad influences from advertising and those dramatic moments that will never happen to us.

I definitely, stand up for my beliefs, more than ever before, right this moment (as who knows what will i be thinking when i wake up tmr morning?). My intuitive attitude of following my feelings (yes, i must totally express my gratitude towards my parents, and the past-life-self that did wonders in order for me to have such freedom this day to do what I want to do) is telling me something important. I must obey my thoughts (and must not sidetrack when distractions come forth, as distractions are meant to be there, just because it is in their nature to distract you DUUH). I know I could learn more, if I choose to go this way.

It is not yet the time to give. I must admit that in the standards of the eastern social norm, I have achieve a point where I have no choice but to get a job asap so i stop spending time and money on things that is not financially beneficial blablabla. but for me, it is not the right time, just yet.

There is suddenly so much to process that I must actually sit down and structure my thoughts and write down to-do list, something I haven't done for a long time now. It seems now there are so many more things that I want to learn about. I dont feel I am tiny maybe because I am genuinely happy about what I am starting to choose to do. It's maybe what one would call passion?

So maybe this is it. or These are them. urgh. (seriously, I is hating, the royal rules of the Grammar.) hmm, dont think i will stop writing in crappy english though, unless one day the Queen decides that it's against the law or something.

that's about all of my inpiring thoughts of the day. too bad if you are finding myself boring and uninteresting (these two words are no way synonyms ok). i hope i will get myself bloggin more now, it's so helpful.

dlrow.

i m not angry

but i cant help but feel frustrated, puzzled and sometimes a bit wretched.

annoyed about the fact that

we r living in an upsidedown world now.

people out there work to earn a living, to pay for rents and debts, bills and taxes.

yet the world of consumer goods could not stop inflating.

and yes the cheapest we shall buy.

but the cheapest often leave us with side-effects to pay later, at a higher price.

we cannot believe now.

the world is full of deception.

not so sure

maybe it's all packaging, advertising and business strategies and tactics

the people want to spend less for the better

the suppliers shall give 'em

and who shall be blame then when it's all too late?

***

still remember that world before time

time before the abuse and misuse of science and technology

we all live peacefully

earth is still our dearest mother

our source of living and life

it's no wonder today she's all angry, all wretched

the irony of the 21st century

we buy

for what our ancestors could have paid nothing to

just to help ourselves have better lives

for our health and for the earth's

we pay for what we have done to the earth

we are paying back

it's sad story

i hope it doesn't continue

so please

end this one circle

it's a vicious one