人生的填充題

我是真的有資格昇級了嗎？

很想告訴自己，大概應該也許可以了吧。可是，經過了這好几次的重復自我反省、自我評估，始終我過不了自己這一關。外人更不用說，一定取笑我了。

面臨進步的瓶頸，面臨對自己的能力與智慧的失望。
這關卡，即使時間給了我一個arbitrary的肯定，自己還是得 *填充題 * 以讓自己真真正正地過關吧。




你知道嗎？世上最好玩的感覺，就是麻木。
開心和悲傷，都比不上呢。

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MUAAHAHAHAHAHA.


MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

**dingding***




拉邦我來啦﹋！





MUAAHAHAH.

blaaaaaah.

one of those days.

when i feel a bit lazy and not bothered and not wanting to do anything.
a one day vacation.
it's always the mondays.
the monday-blues.
but the thing is i just worked really hard on the sunday, and lying down on bed on the sunday thinking, is tmr monday? i thought today is friday? so technically monday blues should not apply to me?
but i think it's the annoying 11-1pm ed. psy lect. cos from my past experience, i work best at late mornings and late afternoons.

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it happens.
when u no longer hv loads of lecture to attend ( and as a consequence loads of self-lecturing/self-reading/self-teaching to attend to).
u just keep working and working and before u realised it's saturday and then monday.

the problem is
i can't work on a monday.
the worse thing is
it's a monday night.
i am not a person that works at night.
at least i havent been for the past few weeks.

i wake up early (but not early enough these days). and i swear i will wake up super duper early to work super duper hard tmr.
*mental note: rmb to marinate the lamb steaks for dinner*

i am going to complain to myself right now.
i have so much so much to do. sorry because i shouldn't be complaining here as I should be holding onto the precious hours of the night and work but actually now i am having a bit of headache thanks to my eyes but thank the Lord now it's better.

okie... enuf of blaaaaah.
9.29.
maybe some data entry could do a bit of help - to sooth the headache.
以毒攻毒，真的行得通嗎？