tuesdays -- big decisions in life

days in nottingham r becoming more hectic.. work is piling up.. essays and reports.. n u r still suppose to spend time doing the supposedly essential readings.. i seriously hv done none.. n up till today.. i hv becoming 'immune'.. as in so use to not doing any reading before lectures and after lectures..

lectures.. they r the most boring things in life.. ok.. actually.. depends on the topic, how well you sleep the night before, what time in the day was it, what did you eat before you enter the lecture hall, who is the lecturer so on and so forth. sadly to say.. most of the lectures.. i hardly stay awake throughout.. i either just dream away or unawarely closed my eyes... i was so proud for actually staying awake for most the lectures on friday.. that was a miracle.. but today.. the ever-so-tired tuesdays.. i am always trying so hard to open my eyes and my ears.. n after italian cls... i always have to pray that the hopper bus will be on time.. so that i won't have to wait in the cold and eat alone at dinner time... ( most of my friends eat at 6pm-ish)

n after all that.. i will go back to my room.. n start thinking... should i go to ballet cls today..
ok.. i love dancing.. but the thing is.. after staying in uni park from 9 to 6.. do u stil wan to go back there? imagine taking the trouble to take the hopper bus.. i have to take 8.15pm bus for 8.45pm cls.. n i might only be back at like 10.15pm.. n after shower i will go to bed.. i feel my tuesdays are always wasted away..

1stly.. i cant concentrate during lectures.. 2ndly.. the 1hrss break in between lectures are seldom used wisely... i mean.. u can't.. cos u wan to rest and u just wan to make urself awake for the next lecture and chat with ur frens.. haihz.. i hope i had a better time table..

i hv a lab report due on thursday.. if i officially start tmr.. i might not have enuf time doing.. but does not going to ballet cls means i will actually work? hmm.. i wonder..

ok.. ppl who are reading this blog might hv already stopped reading it up till this point.. cos it's boring.. i noe.. ok.. i hd better shut up n just live on with my life n stop complaining..

birmingham

BaCk fROm BirMiNghAm!!!!!!!!!!

oooo..so fun so fun so fun...

u noe.. it's so cold these days.. we checked on bbc n we tot birm will b cold as well.. like -2 degrees.. so okla.. take more stuff loo.. we took the 9.12 train to birmie.. it took us nearly 2hrs to reach there.. i sat on a seat where the sun keep shining directly on my face.. i had to use my scarf to block the sunlight.. at dat moment, i regretted for not bringing my supa dupa sunglses! haihz..

we reached there at like 11.30-ish.. liyen, rachel n me went to get a coffee in starbucks.. i got a toffee latte.. quite sweet ..but it's christmas-y.. quite nice la... then.. mike came to meet up with us.. he brought us ard the area a while.. we put down our stuff n went to frankfurt market.. it's a german xmas market.. they sell german sausage laa.. traditional german deco stuff la.. etc etc etc..

after dat.. lunch time!! ooo! nice nice.. b4 we came there.. the shop was closed! i mean.. i HASN'T OPEN YET... haha.. but luckily.. it opened alas!n oh no! i forgot to take photo of the shop n take a name card! i will do dat some how.. yeah man! i ate 车子面！yeah!!!!!!! nice nice!!! yeah!! okok.. n i drank 珍珠奶茶！！nice nice!! but i forgot wat flavour did i order.. ops..

next stop.. cadbury factory.. cool man! we took a train there.. n walked there!! in the COOLLDD.. we were like... grabbing each other to share warm.. n finally.. we enter the entrance.. n smelt n smelt.. OMG.. the strong aroma of chocolate!!!!! sooooo chocolatey... sooo..aromatic.. my salivary glands is starting to secret saliva already!!

we get to take back free samples of chocolate.. but sadly.. none of them r my favourite.. they shud gv out fruits n nuts or something besides PLAIN MILK CHOCOLATE... okok.. maybe they r just trying to save cost..watever..

the factory is just like a factory.. the main point is just getting the sample.. n watching how ppl make chocolate.. n we get to taste fresh liquid choco as well! cool..

n finally.. we went back after 2 hrs ++.. n head for KTV!! yahooohoo.... but actually, i din get to sing dat much!! I DEFINITELY NEED MORE KTV!! but all in all, i still hd loads of fun!! everyone sang!! which as really really cool! liyen sang FIR's song lyk mad.. n keep making random comments on the lyrics n ppl's singing.. Mike tan was mad as well.. ok.. i am so used to his singing.. but my frens aren't.. so they tot he sang too loud!! especially 《自由》！！ he sang it like mad with rachel.. n i think suzanne sang the most.. n laiyee too... my god.. n u noe! we order sooooo much foooood... it was nice la.. but the CARNIVOROUS-MIKE ordered so much meat n carbo!! but it was all asian food.. so we r all soooo happy.. haha.. we were also playing some dice game.. which was so fun as well.. haha.. went back ard 11.30..

we chit chat so much in mike's room... so i slept at 4.30am in the end.. hence.. till today still deprived of sleep.

sunday was shopping day..bought a white jacket, a black pants and some scarves.. yeah.. but at the end of the day.. i realise how broke i am.. i will not spend dat much money for now.. guilty..we shop from the opening hrs till the closing hrs.. wahaha.. ooo.. n i ate penang laksa with liyen!! nice!! but actually it's just average.. compare to msia la.. surely.. but not surprisingly, a counter restaurant with penang laksa and nasi goreng is owned by msian.. yeah.. good good.. n for dinner.. we went back to frankfurt market to eat german sausage n steak! nice.. but again.. all meat la.. who cares at dat moment though.. i am suppose to enjoy!

we got on the 8.50pm train.. back to home -- nottingham.. me, liyen, jing chatted so much throughout the journey.. i like chatting..

home sweet home.. n now.. i am left with all my work to be done.. so ciao now.. will post pic up soon..

mike!! if u ever read dis....luv ya lotzz !! thx for everything n everything n everything!! ur room is nice.. i like the carpets.. n ur room is soo much bigger!! cool...keep it up! wahaha...

17/11/05

it's time to start blogging again..

suddenly.. realised a hidden fact abt blogging.. it can b a habit.. but a rather.. useless habit? or..
not really.. in a way.. b'cos.. when i blog.. i learn to organise my tots.. my silly, my stupid, my ignorant tots.. or my carelessness, my sadness, my happiness, my blurness, my hyperness.. everything.. or..shud i say.. things dat i hv in mind at the moment of blogging can b sorted out.. after i start murmuring on my blog.. on n on n on...

who's the audience to all these craps? you laa.. aiya. random pula..

okok.. today went to TQ dinner for notts game volunteers n players. it is also act a deeparaya celebration.. so we get to eat decent food... malay food n indian food.. but gek sei laa.. i din get to eat the beehoon!! it's out of stock! *&(Z%! haihz.. so i just hd to settle with 3 sticks of satay loo.. n some ok-ish indian food.. actually quite nice.. i mean.. ok.. if compare to local msian food in msia, i wld certainly rate them as 2.5 out of 5 loo.. but given dat i am now in notts..craving for some homely-feeling food.. my rating of the food just shoots all the way to 4 out of 5... still not 5 cos i din eat beehoon!! argh...

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i often blog half way n stopped.. hence i can nv continue of line of tots.. which is bad.. n now.. i hv nth to say.. oh yeah.. i screwed my lab report.. 'yeah'... oh well.. 过去让它过去... lame excuse to get away from guilt..

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going to birm on sat n sun!! looking fwd to:

a) chinese food in chinatown -- decent chinese food!
b）karaoke -- dat is if anyone actually wants to go with me la!! i must force them!!! dun care!!
c) mike!! so long din c u!! wonder how is he ler.. hehe..
d) shopping! i need to shop for smth.. hv been shopping for food n basic pharmacy stuff oni since i came here..

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replying to arlina's tag...

8个条件：
条件。。 何谓条件呢？
老实说，还没有遇到对的人之前，我没理由完全知道自己要的是什么。可是，ideally ler...
1) 待人处世还不错。
2）个子最好比我高啦！比较有安全感。
3）接纳我的短处。
4）让我寻找安心感觉的地方。
5）上进心。
6）一定要很能和我沟通。
7）合眼缘。
8）。。。

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notts games was fun... though very tiring.. hv to run around looking for players, n begging other players who r not representing their uni in any forthcoming matches to b referees.. n we often run out of referees.. so keep going back to the same few ppl.. really a huge thanks to all of them.. otherwise.. it wont b a 'sucess'? sucess in the sense of wat? hmm...

success in the sense that.. we won each n every match for BADMINTON!! we, notts, basically monopolied the badminton court! whah.. nola.. i am just happy dat we won! but we, the volunteers r complaining, wat's the point of waking up 6am in the morning n winning the match anyways? haha.. might as well just cancel the whole badminton match la! haha.. joking ard lidat was fun... but it was even more fun to get to mingle ard.. our players were strong.. i mean ARE strong... but some other universites were really good too actually!! some r really 'yeng' as well. .haha..

oh well.. due to the fact that i am a full-time volunteer.. haha.. i din get to watch the other matches.. but actually..doesnt really matter.. cos i realise that i like to watch badminton a lot.. haha.. but i cant really play la!! how sad! i am such a sad person la...

how sad ler? ok.. 1stly.. bad at sports.. used to b good at running when i was like.. kindergarten? so duh.. ok.. cos i dun really like playing sports during sec n pri school.. the teachers r like.. hey.. u shud come join the school's basketball or volley ball team..but i just ignored them..aiya.. so bad.. so now.. as a result, i am BAD AT SPORTS.. AA!

okok. .wat else is sad abt me? can't swim, can't cycle, can't skate, can't roller-blade, can't ice-skate etc etc etc.. not going to embarass myself further.. there's no point..

wtv la.. luckily i am not in the mood to feel sad yet.. cos sumtimes.. if i am like in a not-so-good mood.. i will really really 打从心里讨厌自己为何什么都不会。而且，到最后，更令人讨厌的是，我只会说自己有多差，却始终还是原地踏步。

好了啦，话题也扯太远了吧。

very tired.. so cant b bothered to type chinese.... n omg.. cos my dear deat YiNgYi aka sTepH aka 892 is here rite... so for sum reason just keep eating la.. haha..ate chocolate la.. chinese take-away today la.. cos not in time for dinner.. but it's too oily laa.. will get fat!! aa!! okok.. really need to eat less now.. although ppl r telling me.. eiei.. u paid for it la!!! but how? i dowan to get fat la.. now fat enuf liao..haha..

okla.. enuf of nonsense.. now where got inspiration to write nice stuff.. so just type random stuff dat comes to my mind la..

okok..nites now.. tmr seriously need to work.. ok.. half work.. monday i shall be fully loaded n ready to fire... just like the neuron transmitter.. omg.. i am crazy..

Pride and Prejudice

monday, went to watch movie with Kath.. Pride and Prejudice! It was good! yeah.. n sommore, 3 pounds oni.. (considering the standard student price is £3.90 laaa).. cos shows b4 12noon r cheaper.. n dat show was like ..11.55am..haha..

Mr. Darcey and Miss Elizabeth Bennet... ooO!! 一个人的傲慢，另一个人的偏见，差一点断送一段美好的姻缘。社会阶层的隔膜，终究分开不了两个看似来自两个世界的人。事实上，他们的个性是如此的接近，只因为之前还未发现，彼此蕴藏着的共同点。aaa!!!

thx kath! luckily we managed to watch it, finally!

my x'mas plan : to read and buy an unabridged version of "Pride and Prejudice"!

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p.s.: in order to reduce procrastination, i shall now publish this short blog and continue with my work. =p

思绪化成文字

我知道夜很深了。我知道，我该睡了。可是，我很想写一些东西。一些心情，一些感触，一些感慨。

昨日，看完“elizabethtown”，朋友们说，有点闷。我倒还蛮喜欢的。当然不仅仅是因为帅哥啦，我是觉得，戏里头的意思，一些做人的道理，一些小市镇里人与人之间的感情，一些真正感动人的爱情，生与死的意义... 好像，说着说着，很多道理都给抖了出来。

看完了《金枝欲孽》。这是我懒惰的象征。可是，我却替所有人感到悲哀。几乎每一个角色，都陷入了一种悲哀。我庆幸，我只是平庸之辈。

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昨晚的bonfire，烟花很美。然而，美的东西，昙花一现。

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academic 的东西，从星期五以后，我完全没有碰触。为了让自己，完全进入destress的周末，destress from essay。可是，来临的考验，更多。不能再这样为了想休息而休息。那样，毅力是不会建立起来的。

为了de-stress，为了好好将46.50pounds用得够值得，我决定打badminton和从未接触过的squash。结果，我的左手，开始写不到字。

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看了Kath的msn space。我不竟在想，是我冷漠，还是，我真的没有太多值得想念的人。也许，我曾经想念，想念到了一个顶点，一切都变得麻木。

在英国，其实和在新加坡，没什么多大分别。

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我再不睡，明天早上又要咳出恶心的痰了。

心情篇

很久很久，都没有写自己的心情了。

不知几时开始，blog好像变成了我该做的事，而不是我想做的事？

开始写blog，还是受了x'mas的影响。她喜欢写诗情画意的东西，我也是。于是，把一篇篇的灵感，写在tzeshean那个blog。后来，set up了另一个blog，这一个，写的是自己的心情寄语。可是近来，好像写很多废话。无聊。

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见证天气一天比一天更冷，留意着青葱的大树，一周比一周消瘦。长这么大以来，好像还是第一次吧。以前，谁管得着今天会不会下雨，会不会刮风。一件短袖上衣，就可以出门了。这里，可不行。

每天早上起来，第一件事就是推开窗帘和窗门，感受一下，到底外面有多冷。11月了。其实不必那么做，我都知道每一天都得穿得暖和一些。然而，令人讨厌的是，lecture hall总是闷热的。近几天来到时还好，也许已经习惯了。

现在，我总是习惯晚上10点以后才洗澡，原因是这样可以暖暖地上床就寝。可是，有时候，我还是管不了那么多，那么夜冲凉实在怪怪的。可是，那股暖意，确实会让你睡一个好觉。

最近，常常不舒服。也许是天气太冷了吧。喉咙这几天，也一直痒痒的。今早，还咳出了一块很恶心的痰。吓到自己了。枇杷膏吃得7788，所以吃多点蓝藻。还特地到了student union shop 买strepsils。

明天要去town。3条单调的jeans穿腻了，只有一件可以保温的外套。还要看"elizabethtown"，orlando bloom和kirsten dunst 主演呢。还有laundry。

好了。我要继续看戏。