my uni life is made out of..

ppl say gals r made of sugar n sweet...

my uni life is made out of..

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::: music :::

so far.. i hv nicked all 梁静茹的新歌 from my sis.. the whole 《丝路》 album.. i am addicted to the songs.. sumtimes.. i can just suddenly sing "好夜晚goodnight" in my heart... the next minute.. “可惜不是你”pops up in my head...

i found out my sis's blog has stef's 孙燕姿 new song.. i immediately go to download them from baidu.. sorry.. not dat i wanna do illegal stuff.. but my sis has bought a copy anyways.. (omg.. wat shit thinking is dis..). i dedicated all my time on sunday to dl the whole album! i love baidu! i dl-ed the whole album! yahoo!!! i like “第一天”，“另一张脸”，“梦不落”，“明天晴天” n those special ones... her voice can sing anything sentimental easily.. so i like the more challenging ones..

next.. thx to kean.. i got all those CD QUALITY z-chen's songs!! yahoo!! so happy! hahahhaahahaahahahahaha.... his voice is the best.. he can sing so much better than other supposingly more popular singers in the industry!!

ooo!! n i LUV 五月天的阿信 so much now!! he help to compose 丝路， n also 第一天！ omg!!
moving on...

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^_^ dance ^_^

wat's abt dancing dat excites me?

1stly.. it's the sensation of expressing emotions n feeling through movement.. i guess dat explains y i am not so out-spoken... haha.. but actually.. i like to write too..okok...off topic..

i enjoy ballet lessons.. but they r too fast-paced.. modern cls was moderate.. but i miss those chong hwa days too much!!!!!! those days with evon!! i hv to confess.. those days i was sooooo flexible compare to now! ok.. dat time i wasnt very extremely stretchable.. but it's worse now..

i WISH there's a 1 hr stretching cls available some where....

tae geri was fun actually.. tiring but i get to sweat the most!

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conclusion..

where does study fit in here? hmmm.. i wonder..

actually.. i still study.. occasionally.. haha... i did a practice essay.. though i handed in late! i just emailed my tutor.. n the word count is like.. lack of a few hundred.. haha..but i made an effort to do an OPTIONAL job! haha.. at least.. (omg! i am such a good student, with such HIGH morale.. )

i tried to read the feminism core text.. it gets interesting the more i read it..

when reading the psychology text books..they also get interesting the more i read them.. so i can just treat it as reading a story book? but apparently... i shud b reading, understanding, n making notes at the same time...

hmm.. nvm nvm.. it's just week 5..WAT.. WEEK 5? okok... week 5 means.. i need to get starting.. get hardworking, get motivated!

dis thurs is the formal dinner for newark hall! yeah... get to dressed up... looking fwd..
nott's msian game is 12/11 for msians.. 26/11 for sg.. bonfire is 5/11... oh yeah! 19/11 - birmingham trip... weekends all pack adii!? where's space for my movies!!! i need to watch elizabeth town n all dat! aikss!

but! (serious part now..)

essay deadlinessss... 4/11 - 1st psychology essay, 28/11 - feminism essay...

oh yeah.. november is gonna be fun.. reaaal fun...

i feel stupid sometimes if i write everything dat has happened.. so i'll just highlight imp stuff..

today went to town.. watch movie (corpse bride) + shop a lil' + ate chinese dinner! nice! it cost abt 6.30 quids per person.. the food was good.. not too salty, too sweet or too oily.. i liked it.. n we keep drinking tea! haha.. just like trying to use up wtv we can get out from the money to the max.. we cleaned the plates of dishes.. we refill the rice bowl.. haha... we had 5 ppl.. but we ordered oni 3 dishes.. so we finished them.. all.. nth is left.. except of cos.. the refilled rice bowl.. haha..

today was cold! at night was cold.. in the afternoon was ok-ish...

oh! i dl all stef's new song! so happy.. wait for tan tze wei will drive me crazy loo.. too slow adi..haha..

i'm looking fwd to get the 11 pound unlimited card for movies.. means dat i can watch unlimited movies a mth for just 11 pounds! haha.. provided dat i hv to time laa.. otherwise not worth it..haha.. but i got like soo many movies to watch! oliver twist, pride n prejudice, harry potter n others.. i dun mind watching zorro n others.. haha..

omg! i cant catch up adii.. with my academic stuff.. tmr seriously must do some reading.. monday too!

ok.. wanna zz early.. today actually wanna blog long long one.. but dunno y..suddenly.. nth to say.. zzz loo..

I can't help but to blog again..

today is such a meaningful day..meaningful as in.. i liked it the way it is..

it all started by hving breakfast with LiYen at 8.30-ish... n then.. moving on to reading for prac essay... n the cleaning lady came.. so i went over to vivian's room.. we were saying dat we shud go to lib some day to study 'properly'..haha.. u noe.. laptop is too big a temptation..
ok..moving on.. started on essay.. changed the bedlinen... so happy cos my room is cleaned finally after two weeks.. (poor Sue was sick last week.. so she couldn't clean my room)..
n then.. went for lunch.. it was ewwww btw.. i expected it to taste like the average aglio-olio spaghetti.. but it turned out to b crap! i think i cant cook better spaghetti.. haha...

after lunch.. collected packed dinner.. then rushed off to Italiano.. omg! so many vocab n grammar to learn! i swear i will focus on Italian Fri afternoon.. after i submit my prac essay..
after Italiano.. went to George Green library to get books for essay.. found some useful ones.. borrowed n photocopied them..
then it was already 5.30pm.. time to go back n rest awhile b4 Pilates starts.. but i was so tempted to buy a coffee.. so i went to the vending machine at PB.. bought a mocha! omg! it was so nice! i miss mocha! ok.. then got changed for pilates at 6pm! but the teacher was late! n she din say sorry! argh.. anyways.. we started 15mins late.. but ended 5 mins late oni! the pilates were ok.. it was pretty basic but of cos some i din do well too.. i think i prefer yoga.. cos it's with music? but anyways.. i need one/both of them..haha..love stretching!

ok..so went back..home sweet home finally.. quickly washed my duvette n floor mat n socks! hooray! new duvet today! ate pack dinner consisting of egg sandwich, yogurt, orange juice, chocolate.. i ate all of them.. n i realised i really like sandwich! haha.. i am weird..

n then.. supposedly.. i am studying.. but then.. i went on to the MOVIE sites n BALLET SHOW sites! omg!!

movies...
Pride n Prejudice, Oliver Twist, Corpse Bride! omg! i am so gonna watch all of these! but wonder who wanna watch with me! i just luv movies...

wat's more..
Bolshoi is coming to nott, Darcey Bussell is gonna perform in Sylvia! Tamara Rojo n Alina Cojocaru too! but they r all in royal opera hse in Covent Garden! I am so seriously gonna go there! I can't miss out ! OMG! dat made me all excited to the max!

ok... *calm down, calm down*

ok.. i just wanna blog to express all my happiness n excitement! haha.. weirdo.. but it's my blog.. i can do anything with it..

ok..back to my book.. n ohya.. one of the reason y i am blogging is also cos.. Psychology is getting more n more interesting.. up till now.. i mean. hopefully, it still will! pls!

ok..back to work.. will sleep happily soon..

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期待~~~
星期四：春光乍泄和另一套戏！免费！
星期六：看戏！！
星期日：看戏！！

yet to be confirmed....
5/11：burmingham?
10/4:bolshoi?
??: covent garden?

必须：：：
星期五：Italiano 自修。
星期六/日：阅读 - feminism + psychology + italiano

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加油！

堕落

有时候，我觉得自己真得很过分。不懂得珍惜眼前的事情，反而去追求一些，好像得到了会很幸福或很‘爽’的东西。可是，在还没有得到之前，也许永远都不会知道，到底那些可欲不可求的所谓梦想/理想，是否真的有我想象中那么完美。

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sometimes, i feel i am such a fake person... maybe i just dun say wat i really feel... is dat good or bad? i really dunno..

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星期六和星期日本来是读书的好时机，可是，我太懒惰了。我有试过读书，可是，好像读来读去总是停留在introduction的部分。倒是《金枝欲孽》，看了7集。试问，还有谁比我堕落。
明知道自己没有读过心理学，可是偏偏就那么懒惰。虽然只是week 3，可是，等待我做的reading已经堆积如山了。可是，很明显的，我还可以坐在这里blog。
答应自己，明天真的要整天读书了。星期五要交practise essay，我开始都没开始。
啊！我是怎么啦！

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11pm。我还是睡觉好了。明天再好好加油。唉，说实在，我真的很不习惯这样的读书方式。以前只有考试之前才会读书，现在才刚开学，就要self-study。我真的没有那个mood。

现在有点咳嗽伤风，等会儿再吃蓝藻。

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我的blog越来越废了，可能是整个假期都没有做到什么有建设性的事吧。好堕落啊！

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我不想再这样，一事无成的过日子。希望practise essay会让我重新振作！真的！我必须重新振作！啊！

finally.. i finished week 3.. n i still am always not prepared for lectures..

i woke up early to borrow a really popular book from the library.. thank god the one n only copy is still there on the open shelf. phew.. as time still allow, so i sat down n do some reading.. supposedly for today's lecture.. abt nature-nurture..

after having start reading a few introductory pages from a few books, i really started getting more interesting in psychology.. i not dat interested in the machines part.. just the ideas behind them..haha. i hope i can soon develop dis interest into a strength, into a power dat can allow me not to doze off or get carried away by other things when i am doing my reading..keke.. cos i always do u noe.. i just can't fully concentrate sumtimes... i really need to rediscover the motivation to study.. dat i once had when studying for exams.. but i guess the 1st few weeks of school is lidat..

the lecture on neurosicence was abt action potential.. ppl who took A-level bio found it easy.. cos it's just like revision.. whereas for my case.. i really need to learn the more advance stuff myself..cos i did standard level IB bio.. too bad.. sigh..

then the individual in society lecture was abt nature-nurture... conducted by my nice tutor.. but feel sad for her cos she cant really deliver a lecture.. haihz.. it wasn't dat interesting... to make things worse.. i find the book i read dis morning was relatively more interesting..opps.. but i hv to confess.. she is indeed a very dedicated tutor.. oh my..she reminded me of my UWCSEA chem teacher... Ms. Dima.. she is so dedicated.. but she is just not experienced enuf.. but she got better as time pass by.. but she is really helpful.. i liked her a lot..

ok.. so after lectures.. oh wait.. between lecture we had an hr's break.. n once again.. me n my group of coursemates.. all from hong kong btw.. haha.. went to Q-Med.. cos we r having the next lecture there.. n as they r all self-catered.. they always feel hungry! so they ate smth.. i just bought a pepermint tea.. which cost £0.75! omg! so ex..

n then.. as usually.. 4 of us just keep chatting.. emily is really random n funny.. but it's good la.. at least we wont feel 尴尬 at any time.. haha..

then of cos.. after lectures ended.. i went for lunch at portland.. ate dis redcurrant lamb pie.. it was nice.. n emily n arlina helped me finished cauliflower n mushy peas.. haha.. good.. cos i too full too.. i hate getting too full... but i always hv to eat proper meals here.. ppl say they got sick of sandwich.. i mean those self-catered ppl.. cos it's the cheapest lunch they can get in school.. but for me.. i got sick of proper meals.. i.e.... meals with potatoes.. haha.. so ya.. i was secretly hoping to eat sandwich instead..haha... i can trade ur sandwich with my meal! dat's not a prob at all! hmm.. hving said dat.. i am interested to do so one day.. i shall ask my coursemates one day..haha..

n then.. i went back to JC... still thinking whether to join the seminar presentation cls or not.. but i just joined in the end.. it was.. a bit boring.. but i got handouts on how to do presentations laaa..so quite cool. during the cls, the teacher was quite humorous.. reminds me of Mr. Morley.. actually, i said to myself, i dun really need to attend these... cos Mr. Morley taught me a lot already.. i missed eng cls!! sigh!! it's a bit late to miss it oni now.. but i seriously do.. it was so useful n fun.. he was funny.. n a very good teacher too! n i am so pissed at myself.. cos i din bring any eng notes with me.. maybe i shud ask my mum to send them to me..wahaha.. i am crazy..

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during lectures, i keep hearing ppl coughing.. n now.. it kinda hv an effect on me.. i mean the germs.. my throat has been weird for nearly a weeek adi... but still okla.. just not very normal.. i try eating more spirulina etc n eat strepsils..

i dunno y so many ppl r sick... my guess is dat those ppl party too much, drink too much, n smoke too much... they r stupid! they just cant stop partying... i am basing my guess on the fact dat.. those who cough severely r mainly caucasian.. n they r the ppl who loves partying n stuff.. gila one! n those poor asians actually got infected by them.. i think.. n now.. my fren staying in the same hall as me is sick.. poor gal.. i will visit her later.. i adi gv her 枇杷膏！ haha.. i think i shud giv her spirulina etc too.. since i really hv too much stock..haha

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u noe.. i am so happy to be able to exercise 3 times a week!.. i joined Tae Geri on mondays.. ballet on tuedays.. n modern on thurdays..
tae geri is consider the most high intensity exercise.. sweat a lot due to jumping, kicking, punching etc..ahha..
ballet was fast.. cos i joined the advance cls.. but i am happy to do ballet again.. goin to town to get ballet stuff.. yeah
modern.. i am really beginning to luv it a lot.. ever since chkl days.. i think i was lucky to get to noe abt it from a young age.. (form 1).. so now.. i find it easier to learn it..
hmm.. i find i am lack of smth.. so still in searching for pilates or yoga lessons..aha..
i am a stretching + dance freak!

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weekend plans: - go town
- plan prac essay
- reading reading reading, make notes make notes make notes.
- chill n watch 金枝欲孽

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signing off.

Tuesdays r sooooooo busy...

1stly.. thx to the lovely so lovely fire alarm at 1am last night... i woke up at 8.10am dis morning! omg! my lesson is at 9am! my lecture on feminist philosophy.. oh yes.. i din eat breakfast.. i rush as fast as i could.. brush teeth, wash my face, get dressed, pack stuff (ops.. last min) n rush to the hopper bus station at like nearly 8.30... omg!! the longest queue ever.. so many ppl queueing for the bus!!! ok... deep inside my heart.. i prayed for a dbl decker hopper bus.. n thank god.. i was lucky! so.... looking at ppl getting on the bus.. i wonder if i am lucky enuf to get on dat bus as well... oh yes.. thank god again.. i got on the bus.. sitting at the upper deck.. yeah! then i looked down at the queue from the window.. n saw poor Rosalind queueing outside.. she could not get on the bus! later, i found out she woke up 10 mins later than me... told u! it's dat fire alarm! i heard there were 24 last yr! OMG! i hope dis yr will b a totally diff case... a senior.. also from msia told me abt it.. but she said dat dis yr's freshers r more well-b'haved.. so i hope she is right..

ok.. moving on...

我很久没打华文了……hehe.. random..ok..so.. 上到巴士上，发现自己忘了带 italian text book 和 line paper..真的有够猪头。所以，上完了 feminist philosophy 以后，只得赶快搭hopper bus 回 JC... 天啊！

午餐，和arlina约好了在 PB foodcourt 吃。然后，在赶着去上1小时的cognitive psychology..抄notes抄到手断了。幸好下一次的课不再是这位lectural了。

然后可以休息一小时。。

然后，上3点钟的statistical methods，最闷的课。我好想睡。。。

又是一个钟头的休息，但是我和coursemate去了library。。晃了半个小时后，又去上italian。过后，赶着去搭hopper bus回去吃晚餐。吃饱了，又要准备去8.45pm的芭蕾舞课。由于6点钟过后的hopper bus只有在半个小时才来一辆，所以只得乘搭8.15pm的车。

到了那里，A23的课室里还有beginner level 的学生。突然，我跳舞的感觉回来了。听着所谓芭蕾舞的音乐，开始陶醉其中，虽然只是beginners的。陆陆续续来了很多外国人，看着每一个不一样的脸孔，却好像都同样显露出芭蕾舞者的自信，我顿时感觉自己的渺小。

进入课室，很多人都换上了leotard 和 ballet shoe, 几乎没有人像我那样，连基本的舞鞋也没有，虽然确实是有一位。不过，话说回来，我确实有点紧张。因为，毕竟我没有跳芭蕾舞2年了。

开始的bar work真的算ok了，虽然，我还是不是很能跟得上。舞蹈老师教得好快。可是，center 的choreography才是真正的问题。由于我上一堂课并没有出席，所以前面的部分都没学会。老师先教了新的部分，同样的，教得超级快。还好，一位好心的同学，告诉老师后面的学生看不到，所以，我竟然变成first row了，which is a good thing。当下，跳得不好也许是其次了。我只想学会那些steps。我就这样，死命跟啊跟。到最后，抓住了某些step，但是，很肯定的，下星期又会忘了。

I realise, my ballet has truly deteriorated greatly.. wat can i do? i cant do anything.. my life for the pass 10 yrs were filled with ballet...but 2 yrs ago.. i suddenly left the 'ballet slot' blank..it's my fault.. otherwise.. i would imagine myself being able to do pointe work.. more or less without effort...

i will try to catch up.. no matter in ballet or psychology.. i hvt done much reading yet.. n dis is a totally new subject for me..

dat's it.. it's time i stop msn-ing every night.. it's time i get myself organised.. it's time i get serious with my life here.. it's time to get real.. n Week 3 will be the time to get started..

happy day!! lalalalalala.....

omg! dunno y today i so happy... it's actually after the dance thing really... hahaha..

today i had no lessons.. i had to go to uni park campus for an induction session of the Self-Access centre n to register for it.. cos i taking interfaculty italian.. so i need to go there to listen to tapes, watch tvs n news.. etc... phew.. luckily i went early.. otherwise i hv to go tmr again.. sorry arlina.. u were late.. hhehez..

n then after dat.. just wander ard the campus.. haha... then i bought handcream.. cos my hands so rough liao.. i hate it! hmph! oh yeah.. n b4 dat.. i bought a second-hand book too.. from a senior.. she is 4th yr now.. she said i would enjoy Feminist Philosophy wor.. dunno true or not la.. haha..

oh n then.. just took the hopper bus back loo... next time.. i will always take bus from East Drive.. n not Hallward Library.. otherwise.. i will be going around the campus! waste time oni!! oh n yeah... i bought Snickers chocolate bar.. haha.. it's random.. but at dat time i just feel like eating chocolate.. hahaha..

ok.. n then i came back.. chat wif frens n sis.. n i told her to gimme songs again.. haha.. from fish leong's new album! 《丝路》！太好听了！我的心，现在瘦瘦的，很容易，就饱了。。。

ya.. dat was one of the reason i so high now.. haha..

n the other MAIN reason is...

i went to contemporary dance lessons from 5-6pm at Portland Builiding.. so suang!!!!!! when i was dancing.. i suddenly remember the times when i learn modern dance in Chong Hwa.. n performed.. so suang!!!!!! omg! i almost 感动到哭了！

我太爱跳舞了，也不知道自己当初何以能够停止跳舞两年……

although the cls is oni 1 hr.. n not really the professional type.. but i am just too happy to be able to dance in a dance lesson again!! i can't wait for tuesday's ballet lesson...

n then at dinner.. i ate lamb n salad.. the lamb has a corn-like bean.. n on the bus i was so wanting to eat dat suddenly.. n now.. it appeared to be with the lamb! omg! so happy.. haha...

now back at my room.. listening to 梁静茹's new songs... blogging happily away.. haha..

tmr oni hv 2 lectures.but need to go to lang. centre to do italian hw...

saturday going to goose fair... it's not going there to c geese la.. it's a fun fair! with hundreds of games n rides! fun fun fun!

sunday. still considering whether wanna go to the trip to dunno cambridge or oxford.. oh well.. we hvt booked ler.. c how lo...

going to continue listen songs.. n sing like crazy.. my neighbour is noisy anyways.. he's playing guitar.. haha..