too much.. way tooo much!

someone...SOMEONE...

throw away all the snacks at home ppplllleeaaassssee......

a week off... and now back to reality!

how far will destiny take you to, is not the only question i m concerned with right now.

so i dun care if my destiny is a trap door or a dead-end or a new path to a new beginning, i just need all the will power i ever need to concentrate and become bombastically commited to work like a cow.

C.O.W.

aaaaa



who took away my motivation my determination my strength my will power

OKKKK

tmr tmr tmr.. wake up at 6am work till 6pm

YES EVERY SINGLE DAY, I SHALL.




marathon has just begun.
it shan't end till 11.1
stamina building has been done
and after the long-awaited rest
i shall get back into my track suits
and get ready for the real challenge towards the interim finishing line
before i deserve the next break

moderation

holiday, erm, i mean study leave is here to stay. for good.

so where is christmas going to bring me to this year? not too sure yet.



all i noe is, currently i m in a moderate mode. moderate is when

u r not preoccupied with anything but at the same time occupied with something;
not taking things too seriously - not in moods of, "i dont want to work..." or "oh gosh i have to work!!!!!";
not in an especially sad/emo or happy/hyper mood;
not in desperation of.. pretty much anything;

and above all... what i really mean by moderation is,
the feeling of content.
and i have been like that, for the whole day.
seize the day, or the night till the end, i shall.
it's not like that everyday u noe.

maybe, a good breakfast helped a lot;
maybe, accomplishing the littlest thing of showing ur concern to others, helped as well;
maybe, seeing people that u hvt seen for a long time, helped too;
maybe, being at the right place at the right time, with a partial planning towards it, helped all the same;

yeap. that's all with update.

such a rational/lack of extremity post update. so un me but yet so me. ^^

WAIT. .. .....

anticipating for the realisation of error is just driving my nerves all over the place and then not returning the firing neurons into the correct place and causing many imbalance in the neurotransmitter and the post and pre synaptic clefts are going wild too.

de-tragedised, the great, gatsby.

no i m not going to fail my expectation;

this is just the beginning;

the old chinese proverb, i shall now announce, will not apply to my current situation;

there is no way one could succeed without having to fall down, a few times, in a row;

rmb the story of the bulb and the inventor;

think about moving forward;

positivism and optimism is the way to go;

boats rowing against the current, but i shall not borne back ceaselessly into the past. 

未完成

一號接近尾聲，可堆上來要做的事情好像，有增無剪。

2007年最後一個月的起端，見到了一位久違的舊同學。真開心。想一想，那些曾經一起追夢的歲月，都似乎隨著接觸現實殘酷的爪而逐漸引退。然而，為了夢想，我們還是願意堅持，直到自己不再擁抱那股熱誠為止。

夢想，之浩大之可塑性之浪漫之瘋狂，使得我們經常為之懷舊放縱硬硬來。

那是，少年時的瘋狂往事。
而我，想要大膽的，重踏那段，未完成。

從最初到最終 ﹣《蛋蛋於妙想科學》之首部曲

從最初到最終 ﹣《蛋蛋於妙想科學》之首部曲

窗口邊體驗星巴克的感覺
原來比咖啡因更上一層樓

有朝一日
璇風一定會出版文藝寫真



卡路里開始升級
臉部肌肉面臨澎湃橫向延伸
不祥也 不祥也

十萬火急！！！！！！！！！！！


11.37am 16/11
沉溺入咖啡文化
淪陷完成77%中的0.18
我的未來
掌控在璇風於星巴克之間的小邂逅
那個天空似清晨的late morn.


12.53pm 16/11
靜坐不語 食指大動
緩緩灌淨 一大杯耶誕香
十指緊緊貼進
灰白電腦鍵盤
不覺時間已近13


2.50pm 16/11
沉溺 沉淪 沉陷
沉著 沉悶 沉睡

2.54pm 16/11
...

10.47am 17/11
一日之計在於晨
tuning into – downtempo netmusique.


1.31pm 18/11
吃了什麼
如此疲憊
需要些什麼
挽救離走的魂魄
歸還邂逅精髓
擁抱智者群眾
脫俗優物 鶴立萬物之上
那將是我往前踏步的方向

3.32pm 18/11
ginger loaf cake and Christmas blend please.
星巴克之中漫延開來的
耶誕音樂
耶誕情愫
何時才會到我
何時耶誕才像耶誕
耶誕糕再來一口
耶誕香再來一口

3.48pm 18/11
真的要這樣嗎？



9.21am 19/11
6hrs till deadline.
今天我一定要克服hallward.

4.01am 19/11
如果努力有用的話，那要頭腦干嘛？！

get fused into the lisa-ono-ness of.. life.

if i get to choose a life, i would be satisfied with mine.

i cant believe this ME is actually a university 3rd yr student waiting to receive the 1st ever ( and most likely the last, or not?) undergrad degree yet sitting here blogging abt how she is enjoying her life as the person who enjoys food with a twist of french cross italian slash japanese fusion and all that jazzes her. and yes that would include some lounge music with a blend of jazz a twist of blues and anything that could linked in with melancholy.

oh dear.


anyway, i m glad i chose to be the way i am now.

subtle experiences in life form parts of your personality though it might only exert when the context is right. and very often when u make decision in life you need to be in the correct state of emotionality as well. hmm. seems like i m not making much coherent sentences in this paragraph. but anyway, i was just trying to say, it's all down to timing and opportunity.

so do the right thing at the right time.

when it's time to laze around, then just stare at the faraway shadings of blue and orange and spend your dinner with the sunset.
and when it's time to hand in your assignment, consolidate ideas while you are toiletting and question the validity of your arguments when you are showering. at least that's what i might do.

okie. that's it for tonite. time to prepare yet another exciting dinner, to say goodbye to october and hello to november.

poems are fun to express the unexpressable.

也許是執著 也許是尋覓 也許是回憶

totally stubborn
yes i am
holding onto that something
which creeps inside and perhaps beyond me
into the definition of
my self-identity

i m not tired
no i m not
i shall prove to myself
yes myself
that all this is no burden
they r just part of me
naturally
not becos of the past, future, present
but it just comes naturally...

dat's y i m doing all this .


there is no end until i find out
the causality behind the truth that is yet to be explored

soon
that will be
the 'soon' that is not too far away



and it continues...

the brand new,.. me?

how has life been treating me?

***

it's been.. really quite some while. since i last blog, blogged abt taiwan.. and those days where i feel comfortable sitting under a tree, listening to voice of nature, feeling the sunset, amuse myself with the everchanging clouds, and the appearance of the smiling moon..

and months later, i find myself, sitting here in nottingham, on a not-so-comfy dining chair, typing away just cos i feel bored and wanted a rest from work. well, not dat i worked a lot already. but yea, i need an interim break? lol. made up word.

off to my 1st dance lesson for this semester, sem 5. it's one of those things, or one of those days dat i look fwd to. maybe i just love being alone too much. mark my words, not being lonely, but being alone.

for the fact of my fondness of lonesome, i lost the sense or more like i never had the ability to communicate with another person properly, and especially when i m stress/nervous/panic. argh. dat is definitely one BIG THING dat i hate abt myself.

dat's wat brought me back to this little corner of mine. to talk thru myself, abt my shortcomings and how can i improve it.

not easy. definitely not. but thru more exposure and experience, i truely hope i will improve. maybe i need to get part time jobs to get myself more charismatic. i need it, for survival. yes, it's dat bad....

oh well, i dont exactly want to be too negative abt myself here.

yes. looking fwd to a brand new saturday. and then, it will be back to working mode. i need it for 3rd yr. my expectations r high for this yr. i need to achieve a certain amt of success, before i can actually allow myself to pursue a dream, the dream.

ok. dat's it folks. will meet again, when i m nearer to my dreams.

臺灣東海岸之旅

對臺灣的認知

大部分停留在臺北的高樓

西門町的巷子

誠品書店

不打烊的7-11

***

但是 臺中花蓮之旅過後

就整個不一樣了

往花蓮沿途的咖啡車車

還有陪伴著一杯杯的曼特寧的枯樹月色

接下來的一天，更探討了石窟的奧秘，還有仰望更加奧秘的藍天白雲....

可是，這一切只不過剛剛起頭。更心曠神怡的還在後頭。

因爲，我們住進了我個人認爲，獨具“后現代浪漫”主義的民宿 — 光宿。

還趁機翻一翻這裡女主人的CD收藏

然後盡量妥協只有一把風扇能夠給予的涼快的...樂趣？

不過這裡的生物倒是別有風味，如這一只蝴蝶....




月亮呢，總是默默地守候，待夕陽西下之后，為漁民照亮。
真的，來到這裡，才體會到，月亮的偉大。只可惜，沒有月光照亮海面的照片為証...





理所當然的，這種地方給予的靈感，可是無限多的。
如果讓我住上一個月，我會考慮出一本“流連東海岸之詩情畫意”....



更有趣的是，這裡有一個叫做春天的猛男，開了一閒只有一座的餐廳。鮮少接觸城市的文化，卻可以煮出一些口味十分Fusion的菜色。了不起啊！我妹也因此偷偷喜歡上他，2 個晚上。哈。

那麽，既然這麽喜歡這裡，我怎麽又是一副臭臉呢？答案：曬斃了！

旅途中，肯定少不了拍一些很有感覺/FEEL的照片啦....

不過呢，還是不忘自拍一下下.. 看看這兩位，拍到幾爽？！

最後豐盛的原住民大餐，更讓我見識了貨真價實的正派臺灣石頭火鍋！原來啊，使用熱騰騰的石頭，當作另類/傳統加熱器，將鍋裏的東東加熱！百聞不如一見！

然而，我是多麽不捨啊。飛機之下的雲層，願意再次帶我到遠離都市的桃源嗎？

初步计划

荒废了这里好久了.. 真是不应该的。

***

这些放纵的日子里，我的脑袋可是没有怠慢下来的。
在想，到底以后的我，该做一些什么有意义的事业。

一直想完成梦想。一个翩翩的梦。
可是，我弄不清楚，那些梦，是回忆的后遗症，还是未来的所有。

到底，我还要这样下去多久呢？
是因为没有好好说再见的关系吗？为什么 总觉得 老是和那一些回忆 纠缠不清？

多少年了 往前看 好不好？

***

好吧。那如果真的不能摆脱那些梦想 干脆去面对吧
于是 我开始计划
毕业后 给自己一年的时间 去探索那一些翩翩的飞舞生活方式 是否是我想要的
然后呢
就看着办吧

而 接下来的一年
必须先修好这一门学士学位
以后的路 怎么走都好
既然已经差不多到寒窗三年的终点了 就应该有始有终的 对自己 对父母 都有一个交待

加油

the last of the 180 marathon

last 180

pleeaaaasseeee

i need smth good

smth more than good

let the last 180 be the best ever 180 minutes in my life

oh gosh

y am i saying this




anticipating... with hope

180是个宿命的记号

用180分钟准备
在准备后的180分钟之后开始
然后在180分钟之内结束



还有多少 180 需要 继续 承受 下去



谁都好，请为我 默默往正面祈祷。

死因(II)

瘫痪在一摊
需要重新面对的数目字
我不想 真的不想
有什么可以 挽回我的钻牛角尖

为什么那个牛角尖死了都要针对我
为什么那个牛角尖早不钻迟不钻
偏偏在我生命唯一的180分钟里面开始不停地钻

It’s so XXX straight-forward
And u just can’t see the XXX point

悲
愤

无法解开了
无法

请赐我睡眠
让我醒来以后忘记这一切发生过的蠢事
就当作
那些愚蠢的180分钟
是我梦境里的所有

也许
明天之后
我可以考虑转行了

做一个
钻牛角尖的诗人
也许
这样子会比较快活一些

死因

我 需要 勇气

失败的可能性太高的时候

我 真的 需要 勇气

勇气 去面对 自己不堪的过去
而这不堪的过去 即将变成更加不堪的未来

不堪
因为不堪
所以更不堪

一百八十分钟
决定生死的 一百八十分钟


我

死

了

。


终结

Work, Stress and Statistics.

try combining:

a) milk with stress

b) coffee with stress

c) milk with coffee with stress


what do u get?


Diarrhoea.

31.5 · 9.6 · 16.6

一些梦 原来是如此地真实
画面渐渐离我远去
然而 感觉贴近心境
就 这种 感觉
没有让我伤悲或疲惫
就因为这种感觉
我的阴天仿佛比别人的多了朝气
就因为这样的梦境
即使没有什么预兆性能和可信度
却更让我下定决心
先好好搞定
现在现时间的
苦境与困境

艳阳天里我不远了

我的 31.5 · 9.6 · 16.6

帮个忙啦~！

救命啊！

睡神暂时不要来找我！贪吃鬼也快快滚蛋！

我只想专心的读书啊！

Sun-Breeze.

Gusts of wind

Rhythmically blowing upon my opened window

Was it the sunshine

Shimmering through the azzuriness of the skyline

Or was is the chilliness of the moving air that

made my mind rested on

rested on an island of peacefulness and that jetty kopitiam

How I wished my lips are sipping up

a mouthful of jagungness that shivers my teeth and spine

yet fulfilling my needs

of ice and of cold

to complement a sweaty and sandy day

and then gazing beyond the schematic nature of fire

of which the azzuri united with the fading glow of the orange ball

until finally

I decided to return

To retreat to the cosiness of an array of homely feast

And while the night began to settle

I soon find myself lying beneath

Constellations of little eyes

Those great eyes

The ancestors of the circle of life

Brought back memories of the late grandfather

Which I incidentally dreamt of before I rose this day…

Receiving first the blessings from this perfect day

I rejoice and retract inwards

To continue my search of the divine truth

With the accompaniment of fellow Greek Thinkers

And when the temporal damnation comes to an end

I shall once again revisit my dreams

The dream of tranquil and subtle joy

And the passion that nourishes the desiring soul

春天的心 去了哪里？

春末
带点 秋天的心
秋天的 愁

仅只一次
仅只一天
好 吗？

蓝

蓝色的我
蓝色的你

昨日的连身校裙
今日的万里无云

蓝得可以平躺在大草原
因为蓝得够恰当 蓝得够意思
所以懒得去管
无法着床脑细胞的讲义

望着慵懒的你
还有你 和你
那个不愿下班的2点钟光芒
那个永不休止的摇曳和婆娑
我的思绪开始偏离正题 被吹到
一闪而过的 水连天天连水的夕阳无限好
然后停留数秒在 走廊木桌上未吃完的三明治
深一深呼吸 又是那股变形湖的青苔味
然后停止了
回到挂着等待风儿吹干的衫裤
回到窗外依旧艳阳高照以及有时还蛮烦人的风
以及那个被埋在千张万张纸张里的我

@ 祁家 Flat 6 Junipers
一个万里晴空的星期二
一个不像傍晚六点一刻的傍晚六点一刻

待续的快乐

春假已过
迎接夏日之前
让我先好好地冲刺
然后从记忆中
重新捡回艳阳高照的午后
涌入35度的怀抱里

倒数计时
7周飞快的7天7夜

冲向所有期待的
冲向一切渴望的 ....

待续的快乐
才刚刚起了头
继续
等待 吧

安息吧~

今早见
白花瓣满地散
春天即将终结
凄美的终结

刚才的午后
收到一通miss call
播回去之后 发觉
窗外的白色凄美
好像 让我了痛了一些
不想离去 却非得离开不可
时间终结小白花的小生命
也终结了 外公曾经那老当益壮的臭皮囊

灵魂依旧存在
在某个国度或时空
衷心祈祷未来一切更好
如果您的那个世界 还存在未来这一种观念

终于 您都自由了
完成了今世的使命
来生 若有来生
希望一切更加美好幸福

安息吧 终于都能脱离 肉体的苦难 得到一种提升 一种 禅

生日快乐

20. it was 10 year ago since there's a number '0' in my age.

the yester years of the 10s; the symbolic number of the anticipation towards a new phase in life.

life is too short to ask for too much, on a special day like this.

how many more such special days can there be anyway?

***

睡眼惺忪，窗户的缝隙，透出微光 - 比平时的朝阳薄弱了许多。

天空灰灰的，我悄悄祝贺自己，生日快乐。

天空灰灰的，我大声告诉自己，无论怎样，生日应该要开开心心，把阳光放在心上。

***

感谢妈妈爱睡到不得了还特意来电并send sms，真的感动了；
感谢爸爸的生日卡；
感谢妹妹的生日卡？ 不知道算不算，不过真的很cute呢！ (ps: u shud giv credit to AR and popo too laaa~~~）。

感谢祁家的easter b'day cake, 真的很喜欢，很感谢有你们的陪伴，让我生日不孤单。

感谢99老友团的贺语，好想回马亲口对你们说声谢谢，然后重游阳光沙滩.......

感谢猫猫的生日礼物，虽然还没有收到；感谢所有所有，祝贺我的朋友们，想起我的朋友们...



也感谢，这一天，阴阴的天空。没有你的灰色心情，就衬托不出我的快乐喜悦，我静静的外在世界，我翻滚着雀跃心情的内心世界。

system in need of a restart...

system breakdown

virus attack

nerdy mode has been switched to safe mode

system restarting

scanning in progress

.
..
.
..
.
..
.

virus detected!

to continue, send to quarantine

repair using motivation and determination



to avoid future disruption to system

please allow no external/internal distraction

and control for new virus/trojan attack by scanning on a daily basis


end of scanning

please allow system to rest and start up again on a nice bright sunny day :)

time to be nerdy

begin

.
.
.


shean
is
now
programmed
to

nerdy
mode


.
.
.


end

aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

如果今天可以永远持续下去
感觉我的假期 只持续了一个晚上
也许 是因为这样
不够 不足够


aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
除了无助的呐喊之外
也没有别的方法了
就让我 释放一下 没有假期的感觉好了

我要....

把拔 玛迷

你们快点来探望我啦

好不好啊




傻女

佢哋都睇唔到啦




係咯

算罷啦

PASSION~

if i do not have obligations, obligations that do not encompasses passion

if i only have passion, passion that are important to life, society and the world, passion that are beneficial not only to myself as a selfish being but as an individual that could contribute in some sort of way to the big society

if only.. i can live on.. with just having p.a.s.s.i.o.n.
and perhaps
nothing else


yes
i am still
my selfish self

8

yaaay

my feet actually fits into size 8!

wahaha

太好啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦~

天气心情运气时机

都好好好好好好啊





太好了

真的太好了




好

要开始好好努力啦

心头大石放下

真的放下了

一切的努力等待与寻找

有了着落

有了好的结果

只是 我开心到极点，还是不会掉泪的



哇哈哈

YIPPIE chap goh meh~

新年正式结束！15days of 吃喝玩乐，15days of 放肆.. well not exactly, but quite a few record-breaking events to add to my list...

yeap. a day of full-cooking, emerse in a total m'sian atmosphere.. YIPPIE.

yeap. a day of no lab reporting when lab is due the next day. YIPPIE.

yeap. a day of rain rain rain and going to fresh asia twice to get stuff. YIPPIE.




TMR. wake up 7am... lab lab lab till i feel mentally dehydrated and physically exhausted. breakfast and lunch? we'll see.



I LOVE TODAY. WAHAHA.



~daan daan crazy liao~

矛盾 的 我

为什么明明

蓝色的天空伴随白色的云朵

我却偏偏

爱反复重播着

灰色的心情？

Now playing:

礼物 - 黄立行

生日快乐 - 刘若英

完整演出 - 黄义达

D R I V E N

D.R.I.V.E.N.




i was driven by..
music
eye contact
physical
mental
emotions
strength
drastic
changing
sudden
lights
transluscent
ongoing
muscles
limitations
jealousy
intimacy
caring
desire
ego
death
rise
closeness
hatred
likes
passion
lost
wanting
freedom
pressure
pleasure
relations
chemistry
reality
fantasy
.....
....
...
..
.



there're no limits to the interpretation of
the
dance.

猪年快乐！

猪年的定义：煮煮煮，吃吃吃，然后变成猪猪猪!

感恩祁家上上下下，一同努力让彼此的农历新年不乏家的温暖...

至大家姐：即使你明年不与我们同住，但是你依然是我们祁家的一分子。明年的农历新年，一定要再次创造纪录！

至羊羊：鬼点子多，怪表情多，欢乐贡献良多。感恩。

至祁祺：嗯.. 一切尽在不言中.. 感觉我们已经是，形影不离了..Hahhaaha.. thanks for being tolerant and understanding. :)

至自己：不是所有人都那么地幸福的... 要好好珍惜...

猪年快乐！

回顾，丁亥之前...

偷偷来到了这里, 过足自由的瘾...







然后，回想着2006，妈咪不舍地说了拜拜…







乘着火车，趋向一个叫异乡的地方…








一路陪伴我的白雪、车轨、蓝天、白云，还有mp3的音乐；我，并不孤单..







回到温暖的祁家… 空气蔓延着黑墨的气味时，我没有因为想家而心寒了...






...多亏，那些一起共难的日子...




..还有为着烤烤烤而努力的热诚...










就这样 农历新年悄悄填饱了冰箱..




而饭厅的角落，多了前所未有的大红..






新年来咯！



满，满，满！！！

新年篇，待续…

人群中·孤单

迷 惘 。

曾几何时
我走进一条 康庄大道
与我同行的陌生路人
嘘寒 问暖

曾几何时
康庄大道
人影稀疏了
逆风频密吹着
催化逃避
让冷清加温 升华

曾几何时
生活圈子 变得小 渺小
走路总是低头
面对风景 微笑
面对似曾相似脸孔 点头
不说一句 再见你好

曾几何时
康庄大道 不在
被推挤到
羊肠小道

曾几何时
蹲坐在路旁
呼吸着鞋纹间灰尘的味道
凝望着风景
此时 风 也停了
嘈杂人群 听不到
心跳 随着喧闹
销声匿迹 灭了 散了

可以做永远的诗人吗？

又来了 又来了
不想做任何动脑筋的事情
那些我认为动脑筋的事情
我宁愿 静静坐在这里 写一百首
不折不扣的打油诗
然后全部用ctrl A highlight起来
delete掉
然后 到厨房 倒一杯柳橙汁
欣赏着 那些新年的零食
假期到底为何这样快离我而去
就像酒精蒸发掉一样永远离去
一去不复返
时日不重返
我生待明日
待 待 待
待到今年夏天的冰淇淋
明年春天的樱花树
后年秋天的红色枫叶
一生中 到底什么最值得留念 留恋 流连？
流连忘返 在去年海边的疯
依依不舍 在若干年前心头的痛
总是要绕一个大圈
才做对一些事情
也许若干年后 又会开始后悔当年的任性
就像现在惋惜没有把握从前的美好一样
惋惜后悔
没有时间 珍惜现今
然后 重蹈覆辙
重复着惋惜后悔的动作
十足一个不倒翁
永远不懂得前进
只懂 失望时往后退 奢望是往前盼

一二二二的星期一夜半
我醒着 清醒着
而心 却很想醉倒在夏日绵绵的热风中...

假的进步

亲爱的读者，

我曾经说过，我很喜欢我家外面的小庭院。

今天，运动洗澡之后，坐在靠背的木椅上，读着藤井树的《寂寞之歌》，也一同跟随着情节发展陷入了层层叠叠的寂寞里头。

寂寞，总是激发我的思绪，我的敏感神经。

就在这时候，我稍微离开了黑色的《寂寞之歌》一下下，观察着四周我喜爱的庭院。赫然发觉，一切的一切，都是，假象。原来，所有的人，都爱上了假象。

先说说自己好了。

我喜欢绿意荡漾的庭园。竹子树立木栅前，像是守卫着我们小小的家一样。还有最近光顾了南洋然后却因为眷恋这里而不想就此离去的雨神，为我们的石头小径增添了薄薄的绿衣裳。难得的青苔，真想把他们搬回去放在那些陈年的盆栽上。坐在这里，眼神摆放在距离最舒服的远方，泳池的粉蓝色，就在瞬间把我从美景里用力地来了出来。

假瀑布流向假的水池制造出假的水声让你感觉到仿佛身在森林里某个会让你心旷神怡放松紧张情绪的度假旅行当中。

围绕着泳池、那些傲气逼人的棕榈树，瀑布后面让你跑步跑到气喘如牛的跑步机......

写到这里，我的矛盾本质已经不容许我在这样写下去了。

我们活在这个世界，也许不可以要求得太多。就像我要回到用写信交流，用双足环游世界，为生活而生活的年代。

是的。我向往一个大自然的空间。可是，无可否认，我也同时很爱坐在街头巷尾，喝喝蓝山，吃吃松饼蛋糕之类。从前的从前，要得到前者易如反掌，后者是贵族独有的奢华享受。可是，今时今日，情况却是恰恰相反的。真正的大自然所剩无几，而且可贵到需要被列入受保护名单的地步，至于后者，咖啡厅如雨后春笋，比比皆是。

要跟着时代进步而进步。但是，想一想，何谓“进步”？而这“进步”的以后的以后，又是如何的呢？进步再进步再进步，然后再然后再然后呢？

雨停了。也许就只有天气，是永远不变的。



璇风随笔

say 88 to AB

Good Morning!

I can't believe I woke up at 7am this morning, thanks to my right nostril that itched me to consciousness. It must have been some germ attack or something. I just could not remain in a horizontal position any longer.

Thankfully, after 3 days and 3 nights of marothon-ing with my portege on the unbearable-turned-historical Annotated Bibliography, I could confidently say that I am a better journal-skimmer. no more AB for good. u hv no idea how thankful grateful delightful cheerful joyful I am. U HV NO IDEA.

but to add on to that, i managed to eat at crystal jade la mian xiao long bao, brewed tea "professionally" for the first time using mum's tea tools, cooked garlic fried rice for the first time using my own method and it tasted great, watch 2 episodes of My Girl eventhough i've watched the whole series before.

I can't believe I am now in the position of packing already. I thought I wanted to go back to UK badly but now it seemed to me that I do want to stay for a few more days. But then, i do miss UK. After being away from the "virtual social community" - MSN for a long time, I went on it again last night and realised i do miss Kei Fam a lot!!! I won't be long till i come back k? need to enjoy more of singapore first for now...

OK. my breakfast is sitting next to me now, and I am sitting in the middle of my beautiful garden, which I remember last embracing its beauty with words when I was preparing mock IB.

A late Happy 2007 to all. to whoever that pass through here, with and without notice.

shean aka. daan daan

can dis be consider a new yr resolution?

3 words...

prioritise prioritise prioritise...

end of story...

2 0 0 7

二 零 零 七

很久以前，是那么地遥远。现在，我却，身 在 其 中。



2007, 写日期的时候，开始由陌生变得熟悉。可是为什么，突然之间，我有一个奇怪的想法；感觉2007仿佛只是一个过渡期的365天？

2007的存在，只为了迎接2008？2008的北京奥运，2008的毕业典礼，2008的“正式成为大人”之日，2008的2月29日, 2008的....




不管怎样，2007，步入了第3天。还有362天。倒数是没有意义的。

明天，是的，2007年1月4日，我真的要做点什么了。去年的最后一天到今天，一直呆在家里没事干。脑袋不想做功课，因为潜意识一直在催眠自己，说还是公共假日，不必那么用功嘛。谁知，明日复明日，自我谴责的声音在后脑勺也越来越响了...

不是说好，这个假期，要在放松之余也过得充实的吗？

14天，够你充实了吧。新的一年，不可以在让惰性倾翻你的人生了。蛋蛋不可以，璇风也一样。加油吧，自己。